Then I move into Cowden on Friday and begin RA training.

SUMMER IS OVER... :( :( :(
 

What colour is your bra today? beige

Do you swear a lot? Fuck yeah

Do you straighten your hair? Negative... it's already straight

What’s your favourite girl magazine? I have to choose one!? Just kidding, I have better things to read

Do you wear clothes/shoes/jewelry that's uncomfortable? Um, no

Did you ever spend all day/night getting pretty for a guy? Negative, guys should like you for who you are, not the you that takes all night to get ready… though I will admit, dressing up can be fun.

Did you ever cry during a romantic movie? Yes

Would you leave the house without makeup on? Since when do I wear makeup?

Do you consider making out "unladylike?” If it is in front of others, yes…

On the scale of 1-10 how fun is shopping? Depends on who I am with and what I am shopping for.

Do you think lip gloss is the best? I’m a Burt’s Bees girl

Do you freak out if you miss your favourite show? nah

How long does it take you to get ready in the morning? Like 10 minutes

Do you like skater boys? Sometimes?

Is pink the best colour in the world? NO, Purple is.

Have you ever dressed unlike yourself to impress a guy? No

Do you often wish there was something you could change? Yes

Do you dress up too much for holidays? Not really

Do you like to wear dresses? Every once in a while.

Do you write a lot of mushy love poems? Negative

On a scale of 1-10 how much do guys confuse you? Depends on the guy

In the past 24 hours have you hung out with a guy(s)? Yes

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Part 1: How I Came To Be

Were you a planned baby? I think so…

Were you the first?:  For my mother, yes

Were your parents married when you were born?:  Yes

When’s your birthday?:  September 6

Part 2: My Family

How would you describe your family? Annoying, but I love them and couldn’t be without them

Are your parents married, divorced or separated?: divorced

If you have siblings are you oldest, middle, or youngest?: oldest... if you don’t count half sisters…

Did you wish you had any other siblings?: NO

Which parent do you get along with best?  There is only one, so probably my dad :D Just kidding. My mom.

Do you have step parents? No

Part 3: The Friends

Do you have more than one best friend?:  Yes

Do you share the same interests? Not all, but many

Which one friend can you tell anything to?: Steffi, Luke or Delyan.

Who's the shyest friend you have? Delyan, by far.

Part 4: Your Personality

How high/low is your self esteem?:  I am pretty good to go.

Do you get depressed about things easily?:  No

Are you happy?:  Yes

Do you live life to the fullest? I am trying

Do you regret anything? No, they all made me the person I am today.

Are you funny? Sometimes

Are you shy?:  Sometimes

Are you loud?: Ha ha ha ha ha, not at all.

Part 5: Appearance

Are you comfortable with the way you look? I’m a work in progress

Do you have any piercings besides your ears? Yep

How do you dress? Like me J

Are you tall or short?:  Short-ish to Normal

What colour is your hair? Brown

What colour are your eyes? Brown

Part 6: The Past

Were you a strange child? The strangest

Do you have the same friends? Negative

Was there anything in your past that was traumatising? Erm, not really traumatising, that is a harsh word.

Part 7: The Future

Do you want to get married?:  I want a wedding

Do you want to have kids ?:  Perhaps

How many?: 1-2

Part 8: The Outdoors

Do you prefer indoors or outdoors?:  Depends on my mood

What is your favourite season?:  Fall, Spring or Summer
Favourite weather?: rainy and stormy or bright and sunny

Do you like walking in the rain?: LOVE IT!

Part 9: Food

Are you a vegetarian?: Nope

What is your favourite food?: yo no se, possibly pasta

What food makes you want to gag?: cottage cheese, mayo, nasty shit like that

What is your favourite dessert?: chocolate... or ice cream!!

Are you a fussy eater?:  not fussy so much as picky

Part 10: Relationships and Love

Do you think love is the best feeling in the world?:  Yes J

Do you believe in love at first sight?: No

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ONE - Spell your name without vowels: Jm Mny

TWO - Are you single? No

THREE - What’s your favourite number? 3, 7, and 9

FOUR - What colour do you wear most? Blue?

FIVE - Least favourite colour? Diarrheal green

SIX - What are you listening to? The hunger- Distillers

SEVEN - Do you smoke? Negative

EIGHT - Are you happy with your life right now? Yes

NINE - Anyone ever said you resemble a celebrity? Nope

TEN - What is your favourite class(es) in school? Surprisingly, Discrete

ELEVEN - Do you shop at Hollister/Abercrombie/AE? AE sometimes, but hardly ever

TWELVE - How do you make money? Wouldn’t you like to know ;)

THIRTEEN - Who are your best friends? Answered this already

FOURTEEN - What school do you go to? Northern Arizona University

FIFTEEN - Are you outgoing? Yes

SIXTEEN - One word to describe you? Kfhsdfkljsdhwkrweruwpakdjccnsdmfvnsdiogjwpe

SEVENTEEN - Favourite pair of shoes? NIKE

EIGHTEEN - Do you own big sunglasses? Kind of

NINETEEN - Where do you wish you were right now? I do not know, perhaps with the people I love.

TWENTY - What should you be doing right now? Studying

TWENTY ONE - Do you have a crush on anyone right now? Something like that

Anger
1. Are you currently mad at someone? Nope

2. Which family member has the worst temper? Mom

3. Have you ever thrown something at anyone's face? Yes

4. Does your face turn red when you're angry? possibly

5. When you're mad do you prefer to stare angrily or yell? Depends

Excitement
1. Has anyone ever thrown a surprise party for you? Once

2. Which one of your friends is most excitable? Steffi

3. What makes you excited? Wouldn’t you like to know??

4. If you won a million $'s what would be your first thought? Nike shoes!! YAY! And travel!!!

5. If you could have anything right now, what would it be? I think you know.

Hello World:

So, life has been pretty crazy as of late. As most of you know, I am an RA in Cowden, teaching two FYE (Freshman Year Experience) classes, playing club volleyball (6-8am practices, hells yeah), and taking Calculus 2, Discrete mathematics, Spanish, and Arizona & Federal Constitution.  I would go absolutely insane if I didn't have certain people in my life. I am so lucky that I am surrounded by good friends of every variety. They are the only way I will keep my sanity this year.

Last night I had the best conversation. Being completely open is something I am not the best at, and I know that I annoy people by staying bottled up... but it feels so natural to share things with different people. Last night's conversation revealed that being completely open to someone is the absolute best feeling in the world. To have them know, really know, you and still be your friend is intense. I am really lucky to have someone to be completely open and honest with, and I hope that they feel the same way. If not, I hope they at least have someone they can go to, otherwise I feel really bad for monopolising their time =).

Classes went well this last week. Mi clase de espanol es muy bueno, pero yo no recuerdo mucho, así es difícil a veces. My Calculus class is calculus, so I know I will enjoy it. I worry about my teacher; she teaches integration by substitution in a roundabout and nonsensical fashion, I hope she doesn't teach everything else like that. Discrete Mathematics is going to be hard for me. It requires a lot of thinking outside the box, and I do not enjoy the manner in which Mr. Rushall teaches. PLUS, he looks like my old history teacher and is scary as fuck... AZ&FC is going to be a breeze. I am taking it as an A-Pass/Fail class. Oh, and hip hop is surprisingly hard... as ghetto as I am... =D

RA stuff is good, I really enjoy getting to know the girls on my floor. I may not be the most creative RA with bulletin boards and door decorations, but I feel I am really outgoing and social. So hopefully it all works out in the end.

Teaching is, erm, interesting. I am still unsure as to whether I enjoy it. That scares me because if I don't like it, I obviously don't want to major in education... I was hoping just to fall in love with it, be completely enamoured and convicted. Oh well, I guess that's how it works.

I am looking forward to Winter Break already... for obvious reasons. I miss you, sweetie.

Being the planner I am, I am trying to figure out Summer. I need to have things figured out by November 1st. Ugh.

Well, I have homework to do. I hope everyone is enjoying their three day weekend!! =D

So here I sit, amongst the chaos that is my life, or rather, my room, and I cannot help but wonder about the vastness of the universe: all that it is, all that it is not, and all that is presumed to be... all that pressure put on the universe's shoulders. Constantly having to maintain the image as vast and mysterious, while we pick it apart, planetary discovery by planetary discovery, defining its vastness and scoffing at its supposed mystery. We name the clusters, we name the quasars, we name the planets (however uncreative their names may be), we claim it as our own. Our own knowledge, our own understanding, looking for familiarity in a place where our kind of normal cannot even begin to be tracked, sought, nor found. As I sit here, contemplating all this, I realise it has nothing to do with what I wanted to write about.

So here I sit, amongst the chaos that is my life, or rather, my room. Boxes are packed, personal effects are gone, emptiness engulfs this space I once called my own, filling it with an unfamiliar awkwardness and aridness that my things once helped become lively and gay. It is humorous, knowing that this place, this room, this house is not what I want, nor what I call home. Yet, as the place is purged of precious priceless possessions, as memories are packed away yet again, its echoed emptiness engulfs my being in a way I never dreamt of. It was not hard to leave in the Spring to live on campus, but I was not as scared then.

So here I sit, amongst the chaos that is my life. I enter this semester mortified at the prospect of its completion. I will either succeed beyond expectation or fail miserably. This semester determines whether or not I should pursue secondary education, a decision I thought I had deduced decisively years ago as my dream. I enter this next semester uncertain, unclear, unconvinced, undecided, unstable, and unsteady with the idea that this is what I want. Along with my career confusion clamoring chaotically at my cage, I also have new responsibilities to people I have never met. 36 of them. In all honesty, I am nervous that no one will like me, take me seriously, or want to confide in me. All these things are essential to execute my new job properly. As I said to my mother on my first day of high school: "What if no one likes me?" The answer to this question as it pertains to my life currently is "You're fired."

So here I sit. I know not what my future holds, except that of myself, I expect greatness. Greatness in success, failure, work, friendship and love are not so unattainable for those who seek it fervently. I am happy right now with all the aspects of greatness in my life, which is all that matters. As I approach this year, anxiously awaiting what will come, freaking out about upcoming responsibility and decisions, I know that I will find myself fervently seeking greatness in my life and achieving it. And, if all else fails, I will drop out and become a stripper.