Arthur and Guinevere

Zombies and Such

Ok, so my friend Emily Rader and I went and saw Zombieland the other day, and so many questions arouse in my mind.

Like, do Zombies have to eat to stay undead? 

Will they become undeaddead (dead) if they don't partake of flesh!?

Do they eat each other because they are bored? 

Do Zombies age? 

In a world full of Zombies, is there such a thing as immoralitymortality (no death for the undead)?

These questions have driven my thoughts lately and led me to develop theories... but I would like to hear yours.

Until next time, live long and prosper... in a total undead way, unless the undead can live forever, in which case... oh never mind!
  • Current Music
    "Buy You a Draaaaaank" - Cute with Chris
  • Tags
Arthur and Guinevere

I Know It's Been FOREVER

Howdy all! Just wanted to say hi to anyone who actually reads this and ask how life's going.

Personally, I miss my best friends: Delyan, Steffi, Kara, and Danielle. I don't see nearly enough of them.

I'm real needy right now, so I'ma go hug my teddy bear aptly named Bear until I fall asleep!

Leka Nosht! :)
  • Current Music
    "Say Hey (I Love You)"- Michael Franti
Arthur and Guinevere

GAH

Summer is gone!

I have finals on Tuesday and then Summer classes are over.

Then I move into Cowden on Friday and begin RA training.

SUMMER IS OVER... :( :( :(
 


  • Current Music
    Your Song- Ewan McGregor
Decrease world suck

Wow, I'm lame

So, my brother Luke writes a really great little e-zine called News From the Moneyman (NFTMM) and I am just so in awe of his ability to be able to write every week in a semi-organised fashion about the things he cares about and even get his friends to submit articles for him.

I wanted to have a weekly kollum (as he names them) but found that I have nothing to write about each week. THEN IT HIT ME. I'll just write about cute animals and how they make me angry... oh wait Fuck You Penguin already has cornered the market on that one...

Then I thought, why don't I go on atheist rants and raves and be obsessed with cephalopods!! Oh wait, I am not that into cephalopods... and I am not an atheist... so I guess PZ Myers will just get to keep his little corner of the world without competition...

Then I thought of several amazing site ideas! I could start a blog about things that FAIL in life... oh wait, right.

Well, what about people's contributions about how their lives are completely FUCKED... dammit, you're kidding!

So, I suppose I have come to the conclusion that I am just completely unoriginal. I am generic. I am a half souled being whose other half belongs to popularised media. Eh, but being dragged behind a bandwagon isn't too bad... at least I have a lot of company.

Arthur and Guinevere

Strange...

Lately I have been awfully strange.

I find myself pulling a Steffi and listening to songs on repeat for hours. 

Now, I have always been the kind of person to tear down songs and try to find their deeper meaning or pertinence to my life, but lately it has been ridiculous.

And worse, all the songs are about love and are super catchy, so I have them stuck in my head hours after digesting them.

I don't know what is wrong with me... I have been kind of emotional lately.

I bawled after the episode of Grey's last Saturday and since then I have just been in a funk... I don't know.

Maybe I am just being weird... everyone has weird weeks, right? Well, that's what's up with me. What's up with you? 

"And to you I grant the greatest gift of all: to love. Love with all your heart, all your mind, and all your soul. Love so hard that it fills you so full that you overflow onto others. Love so deeply it hurts. Love the world and all in it... if you don't, who will?"
  • Current Music
    "Hold My Hand" Hootie and the Blowfish
Arthur and Guinevere

Bored and Extremely Dangerous

What colour is your bra today? beige

Do you swear a lot? Fuck yeah

Do you straighten your hair? Negative... it's already straight

What’s your favourite girl magazine? I have to choose one!? Just kidding, I have better things to read


Do you wear clothes/shoes/jewelry that's uncomfortable? Um, no


Did you ever spend all day/night getting pretty for a guy? Negative, guys should like you for who you are, not the you that takes all night to get ready… though I will admit, dressing up can be fun.


Did you ever cry during a romantic movie? Yes

Would you leave the house without makeup on? Since when do I wear makeup?

Do you consider making out "unladylike?” If it is in front of others, yes…

On the scale of 1-10 how fun is shopping? Depends on who I am with and what I am shopping for.

Do you think lip gloss is the best? I’m a Burt’s Bees girl

Do you freak out if you miss your favourite show? nah

How long does it take you to get ready in the morning? Like 10 minutes


Do you like skater boys? Sometimes?

Is pink the best colour in the world? NO, Purple is.

Have you ever dressed unlike yourself to impress a guy? No


Do you often wish there was something you could change? Yes

Do you dress up too much for holidays? Not really


Do you like to wear dresses? Every once in a while.

Do you write a lot of mushy love poems? Negative

On a scale of 1-10 how much do guys confuse you? Depends on the guy


In the past 24 hours have you hung out with a guy(s)? Yes

------------------------------------------------------------------


Part 1: How I Came To Be

Were you a planned baby? I think so…

Were you the first?:  For my mother, yes

Were your parents married when you were born?:  Yes

When’s your birthday?:  September 6



Part 2: My Family

How would you describe your family? Annoying, but I love them and couldn’t be without them

Are your parents married, divorced or separated?: divorced

If you have siblings are you oldest, middle, or youngest?: oldest... if you don’t count half sisters…

Did you wish you had any other siblings?: NO

 

Which parent do you get along with best?  There is only one, so probably my dad :D Just kidding. My mom.

Do you have step parents? No



Part 3: The Friends

Do you have more than one best friend?:  Yes

Do you share the same interests? Not all, but many

Which one friend can you tell anything to?: Steffi, Luke or Delyan.

Who's the shyest friend you have? Delyan, by far.



Part 4: Your Personality

How high/low is your self esteem?:  I am pretty good to go.

Do you get depressed about things easily?:  No

Are you happy?:  Yes

Do you live life to the fullest? I am trying

Do you regret anything? No, they all made me the person I am today.

Are you funny? Sometimes

Are you shy?:  Sometimes

Are you loud?: Ha ha ha ha ha, not at all.



Part 5: Appearance

Are you comfortable with the way you look? I’m a work in progress

Do you have any piercings besides your ears? Yep

How do you dress? Like me
J


Are you tall or short?:  Short-ish to Normal

What colour is your hair? Brown

What colour are your eyes? Brown



Part 6: The Past

Were you a strange child? The strangest

Do you have the same friends? Negative

Was there anything in your past that was traumatising? Erm, not really traumatising, that is a harsh word.

 

Part 7: The Future

Do you want to get married?:  I want a wedding

Do you want to have kids ?:  Perhaps

How many?: 1-2



Part 8: The Outdoors

Do you prefer indoors or outdoors?:  Depends on my mood

What is your favourite season?:  Fall, Spring or Summer
Favourite weather?: rainy and stormy or bright and sunny

Do you like walking in the rain?: LOVE IT!



Part 9: Food

Are you a vegetarian?: Nope

What is your favourite food?: yo no se, possibly pasta


What food makes you want to gag?: cottage cheese, mayo, nasty shit like that

What is your favourite dessert?: chocolate... or ice cream!!

Are you a fussy eater?:  not fussy so much as picky



Part 10: Relationships and Love

Do you think love is the best feeling in the world?:  Yes
J

Do you believe in love at first sight?: No

-----------------------------------------------------------------------

ONE - Spell your name without vowels: Jm Mny


TWO - Are you single? No

THREE - What’s your favourite number? 3, 7, and 9


FOUR - What colour do you wear most? Blue?

FIVE - Least favourite colour? Diarrheal green

SIX - What are you listening to? The hunger- Distillers

SEVEN - Do you smoke? Negative

EIGHT - Are you happy with your life right now? Yes

NINE - Anyone ever said you resemble a celebrity? Nope


TEN - What is your favourite class(es) in school? Surprisingly, Discrete

ELEVEN - Do you shop at Hollister/Abercrombie/AE? AE sometimes, but hardly ever

TWELVE - How do you make money? Wouldn’t you like to know ;)

THIRTEEN - Who are your best friends? Answered this already

FOURTEEN - What school do you go to? Northern Arizona University

FIFTEEN - Are you outgoing? Yes

SIXTEEN - One word to describe you? Kfhsdfkljsdhwkrweruwpakdjccnsdmfvnsdiogjwpe

SEVENTEEN - Favourite pair of shoes? NIKE

EIGHTEEN - Do you own big sunglasses? Kind of

NINETEEN - Where do you wish you were right now? I do not know, perhaps with the people I love.

TWENTY - What should you be doing right now? Studying


TWENTY ONE - Do you have a crush on anyone right now? Something like that


Anger
1. Are you currently mad at someone? Nope

2. Which family member has the worst temper? Mom

3. Have you ever thrown something at anyone's face? Yes

4. Does your face turn red when you're angry? possibly

5. When you're mad do you prefer to stare angrily or yell? Depends

 

Excitement
1. Has anyone ever thrown a surprise party for you? Once

2. Which one of your friends is most excitable? Steffi

3. What makes you excited? Wouldn’t you like to know??

4. If you won a million $'s what would be your first thought? Nike shoes!! YAY! And travel!!!

5. If you could have anything right now, what would it be? I think you know.

 

 

  • Current Mood
    bored bored
Hand Holding

I think too much.

I find myself thinking more and more about the things I am looking forward to and forgetting to focus on the here and now. I am usually a diligent student, ready and prepared for class, but I have been unfocused lately as I look forward, count days, weeks, months, until the next thing I look forward to. I need to stop, not only for my own good, but because I am pretty sure I am annoying the hell out of all my friends and my family.

I have been seriously struggling with my discrete class, so today I went and saw my teacher outside office hours and class (which required me to make him a magnet... which was an epic fail, but he loved it). Usually I feel like a dumbass when I am anywhere near him and he can be kind of impatient and a jerk in office  hours, but I think he saw the complete and utter defeat in my eyes and was very kind and patient with me today. Even so, I cried a little afterwards.

I have been struggling with my mother taking me seriously lately as well, but today we had a wonderful conversation and I think her mind is changing. We talked about my Orientation interview and whether I should help her during winter break at work and one other thing that has been on my heart a lot lately. I think she kind of came to the realisation that I am serious about it, unlike before, and that things have changed a lot and she needs to deal with that.

I love the new Jack's Mannequin album. It really speaks to me, well, Andrew always does, but this time he has tugged my heart strings right out of my chest, blown my mind, and I stagger in awe, completely blown away, and fall head over heels back into love with his music and lyrics.

It's getting cold here and I need a new winter coat. I also need new jeans because I only have one pair! Basically, I am unprepared for the imminent snow fall this weekend.

Well, I am going to go do my Calculus homework. I hope everyone is doing well!
Arthur and Guinevere

Update on me

Friends! Countrymen! Lend me your ears!
(If you know what movie that's from, you are awesome)

So life has been some crazy busy chaos. I am still freaking out over my discrete math class. I got a 67% on the test; it was curved, so my actual score is now a C, but even so, it is lowest test score I have ever had in a math class.... EVER. However, these last couple lessons I have understood better and think I am doing well... but then, who knows?

Today was great. We had to, by hand, factor out (x+y)^6, and whoever did it fastest and showed all their work won a prize from Paris (a pencil =D) AND I WON IT!! I felt like I actually did something well in that class. My teacher said he wasn't too surprised that I did well at the task because it was rule based math, and he had heard from other teachers that I am very good at rule based math (which kind of made my day to know that teachers were talking positively about me to other teachers). Of course, the lesson turned abstract, but for that short second, I felt like I had done something right.

I am staying awake in Calc II now!! Yay! We are actually in some pretty interesting stuff right now, which makes me uber excited! I live for Calc, I just love it so much... I know, I am a dork... it's cool. =D NERDFIGHTERS FTW.

Speaking of NerdFighters, OMFG JOHN AND HANK GREEN! I am so excited to go and see them with my Steffi Bear! It's going to be totally jokes! I secretly hope they bring along Willie the NerdFighting Pirate Dog (that's what I call him)... that would be just too much for me though, I am already going to go complete fan girl on them... 

I really enjoy being an RA. The connections I have with my residents are amazing. I am glad they know they can come to me with problems. I feel like I haven't really connected with some of them, so I am going to try and reach out more to them... I have kind of a strong personality, so we'll see if I can tone it down a little for them. =D

Being an FYE instructor is 50/50 for me. Sometimes I really love it, sometimes I am like, "Dear God, can I please just take a nap instead." They are really great people though, which makes it easier. I am so lucky to be in a position to help them out, truly. I feel completely blessed.

Me and God have been going through quite a bit of discussion lately. We have been talking strategy mostly. What has sparked this strategic discussion, you may ask... well, let me tell you. There was a man outside the union with a sign and a mouth that was telling everyone they were going to hell. He was judging students and telling people that the only true way to salvation is by giving up your life to Jesus. Now, don't get me wrong, I love me some Jesus, however, the Jesus I know died for the world, not just whoever was going to believe in him later. My God loves everyone and accepts them for who they are, he does not discriminate against the Jew, Muslim, Homosexual, or anyone else.

It just pissed me off because he was preaching against all of my beliefs as a Christian. It also pissed me off because when people think Christian, they think people like that asshole. I would never force my beliefs on anyone, and neither should anyone. Forceful evangelism never works.

When I told him I was a Christian, he was all like "Hallelujah" and then when I told him I didn't think you had to be a Christian to get into heaven, he rebuked me and said I was not a true Christian. The question in the crowd then came "Who are you to judge?" The guy turned around and flat out told him that God gave the saved express permission to judge others. I'm sorry, but that is BULLSHIT. No where in the bible does it say we should judge, rather that God will, and that it is his express right, not ours. When someone said that, he quickly changed topics to Pornography.

God and I decided that people like that are just another obstacle in this world. Not just for liberal Christians like myself, but for atheists, jews, etc as well. It's people like him that cause doubt and fury and division amongst people. I know it's cheesy, but whatever happened to respect for others? Why can't we just get along? Why can't we be friends. Call me naive, but that's all God wants, all Christians should want, and that's not what people are getting.

As for everything else, life has been pretty good. I could ask for nothing more. I couldn't ask for better friends, slave (you know who you are :*), or family. =D
  • Current Mood
    calm calm
In love

Insanity =)

Hello World:

So, life has been pretty crazy as of late. As most of you know, I am an RA in Cowden, teaching two FYE (Freshman Year Experience) classes, playing club volleyball (6-8am practices, hells yeah), and taking Calculus 2, Discrete mathematics, Spanish, and Arizona & Federal Constitution.  I would go absolutely insane if I didn't have certain people in my life. I am so lucky that I am surrounded by good friends of every variety. They are the only way I will keep my sanity this year.

Last night I had the best conversation. Being completely open is something I am not the best at, and I know that I annoy people by staying bottled up... but it feels so natural to share things with different people. Last night's conversation revealed that being completely open to someone is the absolute best feeling in the world. To have them know, really know, you and still be your friend is intense. I am really lucky to have someone to be completely open and honest with, and I hope that they feel the same way. If not, I hope they at least have someone they can go to, otherwise I feel really bad for monopolising their time =).

Classes went well this last week. Mi clase de espanol es muy bueno, pero yo no recuerdo mucho, así es difícil a veces. My Calculus class is calculus, so I know I will enjoy it. I worry about my teacher; she teaches integration by substitution in a roundabout and nonsensical fashion, I hope she doesn't teach everything else like that. Discrete Mathematics is going to be hard for me. It requires a lot of thinking outside the box, and I do not enjoy the manner in which Mr. Rushall teaches. PLUS, he looks like my old history teacher and is scary as fuck... AZ&FC is going to be a breeze. I am taking it as an A-Pass/Fail class. Oh, and hip hop is surprisingly hard... as ghetto as I am... =D

RA stuff is good, I really enjoy getting to know the girls on my floor. I may not be the most creative RA with bulletin boards and door decorations, but I feel I am really outgoing and social. So hopefully it all works out in the end.

Teaching is, erm, interesting. I am still unsure as to whether I enjoy it. That scares me because if I don't like it, I obviously don't want to major in education... I was hoping just to fall in love with it, be completely enamoured and convicted. Oh well, I guess that's how it works.

I am looking forward to Winter Break already... for obvious reasons. I miss you, sweetie.

Being the planner I am, I am trying to figure out Summer. I need to have things figured out by November 1st. Ugh.

Well, I have homework to do. I hope everyone is enjoying their three day weekend!! =D

  • Current Mood
    cheerful cheerful
Arthur and Guinevere

I wonder as I wander...

So here I sit, amongst the chaos that is my life, or rather, my room, and I cannot help but wonder about the vastness of the universe: all that it is, all that it is not, and all that is presumed to be... all that pressure put on the universe's shoulders. Constantly having to maintain the image as vast and mysterious, while we pick it apart, planetary discovery by planetary discovery, defining its vastness and scoffing at its supposed mystery. We name the clusters, we name the quasars, we name the planets (however uncreative their names may be), we claim it as our own. Our own knowledge, our own understanding, looking for familiarity in a place where our kind of normal cannot even begin to be tracked, sought, nor found. As I sit here, contemplating all this, I realise it has nothing to do with what I wanted to write about.

So here I sit, amongst the chaos that is my life, or rather, my room. Boxes are packed, personal effects are gone, emptiness engulfs this space I once called my own, filling it with an unfamiliar awkwardness and aridness that my things once helped become lively and gay. It is humorous, knowing that this place, this room, this house is not what I want, nor what I call home. Yet, as the place is purged of precious priceless possessions, as memories are packed away yet again, its echoed emptiness engulfs my being in a way I never dreamt of. It was not hard to leave in the Spring to live on campus, but I was not as scared then.

So here I sit, amongst the chaos that is my life. I enter this semester mortified at the prospect of its completion. I will either succeed beyond expectation or fail miserably. This semester determines whether or not I should pursue secondary education, a decision I thought I had deduced decisively years ago as my dream. I enter this next semester uncertain, unclear, unconvinced, undecided, unstable, and unsteady with the idea that this is what I want. Along with my career confusion clamoring chaotically at my cage, I also have new responsibilities to people I have never met. 36 of them. In all honesty, I am nervous that no one will like me, take me seriously, or want to confide in me. All these things are essential to execute my new job properly. As I said to my mother on my first day of high school: "What if no one likes me?" The answer to this question as it pertains to my life currently is "You're fired."

So here I sit. I know not what my future holds, except that of myself, I expect greatness. Greatness in success, failure, work, friendship and love are not so unattainable for those who seek it fervently. I am happy right now with all the aspects of greatness in my life, which is all that matters. As I approach this year, anxiously awaiting what will come, freaking out about upcoming responsibility and decisions, I know that I will find myself fervently seeking greatness in my life and achieving it. And, if all else fails, I will drop out and become a stripper.

  • Current Mood
    anxious anxious